Individual Struggles.

One day I woke up in Melbourne, very very upset and absolutely frustrated, trying to get through the dayz of da week, with a lack of hearing support & lost sense of direction, all this due to the fact, my hearing aids, my survival equipment was not functioning 100%. It was taking a toll of my everyday life, even my sex life was withdrawn, I know I don't need an aid to get laid, but how would I even been able to hear the foxy ladies clearly? My confidence as well to add, which took me by surprise on how much I rely on the device everyday.

Long story short, I went to a house party on a Saturday night, then onto Fitzroy to see some live musique, passionately made out with an stunning attractive girl from Paris who had the looks between Mila Kunis & Rachel Bilson and yet still don't know how I ended up home...alone of course (shit) anyways had my aids in my hand as I was bout to put them in its night box beside my bed, yet drunk and waging side to side as I try stand on my two feet and some how, the aids slides out of my hand and Splat as I feel the vibrations around my toes, knowing it was not a good outcome, but to drunk to deal with it and so I picked them up, in the box I lay them down, out I go, calling it a night. Next morning come rising up, it is 10am hang-over Sunday, theres no clarity in the sound frequency, it's like someone just shoved a cotton wool deep in my hear and its not getting any clearer and the mic making sparky sounds as I wear my hearing aid. Maybe thought I was getting sick or something but I knew shit had gone down with the aid, I mean, I dropped it on hard floor, so it's messed up for sure.

Spend the next serval days trying to resolve my device and it turns out that my hearing aids are over 8 years old and hearing companies no longer make or repair the model I currently use. In conclusion I will have to spend about 5,000 Australian dollars to get new ones, adjust the sound & tone and schedule future appointments.Time off work, tight budget, re-adjust to new device....fuck me dead, like I'm trying to rewalk again and re-learn fast.

While dealing with all the drama, Thursdays night comes rollin by and I meet up with my mates from Vancouver after work, there's nothing like having a time out and going to a bar on Brunswick St for a cold fresh beer, and just take a moment away from dealing with the hearing situation. Still gotta go out and make the most of it, life is too short to deal with problems, and more fucked up shit is still gonna come at you blind regardless.. I tell Xavier, my aid crisis and blah blah. Xavier can only understand more in depth than "average person" as he's is 70% deaf in one ear and 10% on the other and refuse to wear the aids, I guess for one reason is, that he can avoid my current problem.

We both struggle in school, for instance if we didn't hear or know what was going on in the classroom, our learning mindset would not be within the class, and Xavier pointed out he was harder participate in class as he was ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) as well and his mind would wonder off. Even his school made him to take an IQ test cause they consider he needed an alternative education system.

We both hit the average marks, so therefore, all we needed was to find a solution to focus in the class and find a place in the class room where we can hear, like rearranging seating position, or a tutor to catch up on relevant subjects to be on board with our classwork.

So at the end of the day, anyone with an disadvantage like hearing impaired, physically challenged, slow minded, autism and related matters...we as individuals have to think more than twice, readjust the situation to make it work for everyone and it is very hard to explain to other people who don't have have to be expose or dealt with the type of struggle, to be more clearly of whats its like? compared of 'normal' ? Just imagine that one day you wake up and half of your body was functioning not normal, regardless of difficult circumstance, you still had to do everything as you would on a daily basics with extra extra pressure and frustration..its a freaking pain in the ass man.

Everyone got their own deeds or shit to deal with, no one is 100% and we as humans are aware of that, but people seem to forget everyone has deeds or disadvantage mentally or physically but in realty we forget to imagine to put our feet in their (other people's) shoes to see what life is like with extra difficulty and we will never fully understand what it truly is to be blind, deaf, physically & mentally disadvantage, only communication about the subject can teach us to have better understanding.

I thought, I share one of my battles of something I struggle with involving my hearing loss and also during my time living in Melbourne, giving an example one of my main priorities or similar situations and how challenging it can be for me in life or someone likewise.